31 Days: Let’s Just be Honest Day 30: Acknowledgement

Acknowledgement.  Do you know what it means?

acceptance of the truth or existence of something; the action of expressing or displaying gratitude or appreciation for something

Do you know Jesus as your personal Savior?  If you do, the very first time you met Him you submitted your life to Him.  To His rule, His reign, His Lordship, His supremacy, His power, His authority.  Sounds heavy, doesn’t it?  When it happens though, it’s freeing.  It’s usually a culmination of realization that you cannot handle this life on your own, your ways aren’t working, nor should they because you have no authority over this life.  Your eyes and heart have been opened by the power of the Holy Spirit to reveal all truth to you (John 16:13); The Truth is: you need saving.  You need Jesus to wash all your sin away and bring you back into a right relationship with God.  And you submit your life to that.  To Him. Trusting that what He did by dying for you on the Cross will do just that.

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Acknowledgement is doing a form of that every day in prayer.   More

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31 Days: Let’s Just Be Honest Day 27: I Dropped The Ball

Let’s Just Be Honest: I dropped the ball.  I’ve been doing it a lot lately, but mostly with myself and family stuff around the house.  It’s not yet to the point where it’s affecting that many other people besides me and my husband.  More

31 Days: Let’s Just Be Honest Day 25: How To Know Truth

So how do you know truth? How do you know what’s right and what’s wrong … what to do and what not to do?  Well, Let’s just be honest: I know the answer to this one!!!   More

31 days: Let’s Just Be Honest Day 1: Higher

I love music.  Some of my favorite worship music right now is from a band called All Sons and Daughters.  The Lord uses music to speak to me.  The Holy Spirit uses it to draw my heart in … to soften me.  That is a very good thing!  Sometimes I’m surprised by how fast my heart can harden … to love, the world, compassion, God, grace, just to name a few.  I was listening to this song this morning: Called Me Higher.  You have to listen to it.  It’s great.  After listening to it I wrote in my journal.  Let’s just be honest with each other and let me share a part of my journaling this morning. More

Psalm 32:3-4

Psalm 32:3-4

This is part 2 of a Psalm 32 Series.

3 When I kept silent about my sin, my body wasted away

Through my groaning all day long.

Our sin isn’t supposed to be hidden and kept in the dark.  It feels like it should be secretive and that no one should find out about it, but that’s not true.  When it’s kept in the dark, it feels like this.  It’s gross and it’s hard and it is our bodies, emotionally, spiritually and physically wasting away and groaning through it.  When it’s brought into the light there is freedom from it and, now,  the ability to do differently.

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4 For day and night your hand was heavy upon me;

My vitality was drained away as with the fever heat of summer.

Selah.

Failing to confess my sin to Him results in internal heartache and external grief.

We’re in the middle of an all out Texas Summer, with highs above 100 for days in a row.  How exhausting is that mid afternoon heat?  It’s awful, isn’t it?  Having to run errands in it is almost a death sentence!  All I want to do is provide relief for myself and sit in a swimming pool.  That’s the way it was for David.  He was physically exhausted from it.  Unconfessed sin wore him out. The Lord’s hand was on Him, encouraging him to bring that sin into the light through confession.  I’ve been there … many a time, this morning included.  Failing to confess my sin to Him results in a heaviness that is draining.

Let us be reminded, now friends, of verses 1 & 2 of Psalm 32.  Confessing our sin is a relief.  It changes us deeply.  That’s a good thing.

The Letting Go

This was me, writing my thoughts to God in my journal 2 days ago:

I just want to sit and read a book and that‘s not happening.

Working out is a major chore.  The fun of it isn’t there anymore.

I feel irritated by normal life.  Having to make grocery lists and get shopping done.   Having to take time out of my summer fun things to do to clean house and get stuff done.

There’s this low-level conflict between the kids and I (what feels like) all the time and I just want it to go away.  Summer is about fun … and we’re not having it.

I’m irritated at my eating decisions.  In all this irritation at life, I’m trying to escape and comfort myself with food — bad for me food.

Do you see what’s happening here?  Things are not going the way I want them to and I’m feeling it.  I’ve been irritated at everything and everyone.

My very next journal sentence was this: More

Jesus, Meet Me in My Mess

There is so much I have to do today.  I have to clean the house for bible study tonight.  Vacuum … mop … sweep … bathrooms … dust … I’ve got to get everyone ready … do breakfast … intervene fights … take care of the dog … welcome play date guests … intervene play date fights.  Oh, our guests will be here in two days and the guest room/playroom is a mess. I’ve got to finish moving my stuff into there and move all of Tucker’s stuff into his new room.  I’ve got to get groceries this afternoon … in the heat of the day … with tired children.  There’s so much to do.  I feel the tension rising.

{Please join me as I link up today with my friend Jamie Ivey on her blog Dreaming Big Dreams.  You can continue reading the rest of this post over here.}

I feel it in my neck.  The tension creeps up.  My neck and shoulders are tightening.  The kids are bickering.  I can’t get it all done.  I just feel a mess this morning.  Just a mess.  Not just organizationally, but I’m off with the kids … that’s a mess this morning.  I’m off spiritually.  I like to sit and read and pray every morning and that hasn’t happened this week like I’ve wanted it to. .  Jesus meet me in my mess!!!  Help!  I feel like I’m drowning here!

I finally give in and break down and throw out these prayers to heaven hoping they connect …

Jesus, I want you to meet me here.  Be here with me.  Come and take it all and make it right.  Make the house clean; make the errands be done; make the kids stop fighting; make it all go away and be done!

Y’all … this really happened a few days ago.  I’d been just sitting in this place of ‘God where are you?  What are you doing here in my crazy every day mess?!  Why aren’t you coming to make it all go away!? ‘ But then I realized something …

He IS in my mess.  He’s here.  He’s always here.  In the book of Matthew, Jesus is risen and speaking to His disciples and gives them specific commands for when He’s gone, along with some comforting truth.  Here is what He says: 

“Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”

Matthew 28:19-20 (bold added)

So I really don’t need to plead for God to be with me in what I’m going through.  He is already here.  He knows what I’m going through.  He actually is allowing a little bit of crazy in my day so that I might lift my eyes and heart to Him and be drawn back to Him in the midst of the crazy.  

Realizing this has been life changing for me.  God is always with us.  Jesus is ALWAYS there to meet our every need.  His death, burial and resurrection were given to us so that we might secure our eternal whereabouts, but also so that He might meet our every need here on earth. 

How do you reconnect to God during the crazy? 

I’ve found that once I recognize I’m in the midst of something overwhelming – whether emotionally, spiritually or just circumstantially – then I need to stop.  Just stop.  Stop and pray, acknowledging to Jesus that I’m in over my head and that I need Him to help me right here, right now.  I get really specific about what I’d like for Him to do in the moment and then I just surrender it all to Him and His will, knowing that He is going to do a far better job taking care of me than I ever will. This always comforts me in those moments:

“For I know the plans that I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.”

Jeremiah 29:11

So I challenge you today to acknowledge the crazy that’s around you.  Take it to Jesus in prayer and allow Him to work it out through you.  Sit in the comfort and peace that His plans for you are full of welfare, future and hope.  I’ll be doing that with you today … let me know, below, how it goes.

Psalm 32:1-2

1 How blessed is he whose transgression is forgiven,

Whose sin is covered!

The Hebrew word for ‘blessed’ here is ‘happy’.  God forgiving us of our sin can actually allow us to feel happy.  It changes us from the inside … even on an emotional level.

Our sin is covered.  It’s not that God takes our sin away so that we are now perfect and without sin.  It’s that He covers our sin with His righteousness so that we are now clean and brought back into a right relationship with Him.

2 How blessed is the man to whom the Lord does not impute iniquity,

And in whose spirit there is no deceit. 

We can come to Jesus in confession of our sin with no deceit.  We don’t have to hide what’s going on inside us.  We can be honest and truthful and open with God, telling Him all about what’s going on in our hearts.  We don’t have to come to him in a spirit of deceit – hiding everything that is going on.

I pray you can be open with God today.  God tells us in Psalm 139 that He formed our inmost parts and that He knows us.  Go to Him today.  Without deceit.  Tell him all about your heart and what’s going on.  Might you be freed by the blessing that comes from your confession.

The Lord Is My Portion

I feel a little busy sometimes.  Sometimes things are in a good flow and rhythm and we’re rockin’ right along; but not always.  I don’t do as well when I feel like stuff is busy.  I have in my head what needs to get done (and sometimes feel like it’s never done) and it makes it hard for me to sit down and relax.  I feel like relaxing is only to be done when everything else is already done.  But that’s not true.  God can allow me to relax and feel at peace even when everything isn’t done.  He is my portion all the time; Here is some truth: More

Ah-Ha moment #3

I’ve been reading Made to Crave.  Have you heard of it? It’s a devotional that was recommended to me by a friend through my YouVersion Bible app.  (YouVersion is a great, free bible app.  Just download it, create a profile, search ‘food’ and start the Made to Crave reading plan.  This plan is adapted from the book written by Lysa TerKeurst wrote.) It’s a 21-day reading challenge and it is really great.

This devotional has given me my Ah-ha Moment #3 … (you can read about moments 1&2 here).

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