The Letting Go

This was me, writing my thoughts to God in my journal 2 days ago:

I just want to sit and read a book and that‘s not happening.

Working out is a major chore.  The fun of it isn’t there anymore.

I feel irritated by normal life.  Having to make grocery lists and get shopping done.   Having to take time out of my summer fun things to do to clean house and get stuff done.

There’s this low-level conflict between the kids and I (what feels like) all the time and I just want it to go away.  Summer is about fun … and we’re not having it.

I’m irritated at my eating decisions.  In all this irritation at life, I’m trying to escape and comfort myself with food — bad for me food.

Do you see what’s happening here?  Things are not going the way I want them to and I’m feeling it.  I’ve been irritated at everything and everyone.

My very next journal sentence was this:

Father, that’s selfishness and control and I’m so sorry. Please forgive me.

Question: What did I just do there?

In coming to God in prayer, the Holy Spirit has guided me into the truth of the situation.  (That’s one of the things the Holy Spirit does; He guides us into all truth – John 16:13).  I’m feeling all these things … I tell God about it … I confess my sin … and in faith, believing 1 John 1:9, I am forgiven for that.

Question: Did my life immediately change, right then and there?

My heart did.  Something supernatural happens there.  I see my sin (it’s so evident and clear!), I confess that to a Holy and Perfect God, My Maker and Creator.  I ask Him to take all that so that I can be in a right relationship with Him.  And He does!

My time in prayer through journaling continues and God immediately reminds me of this truth found in scripture:

“Come to me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.  Take My Yolk upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and YOU WILL FIND REST FOR YOUR SOULS.  For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”

Matthew 11:28-30

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There’s a ‘letting go’ that I have to do here.  I’m walking around carrying all this ‘stuff’ – worrying about my husband, conflict with the children, not having a job yet, best friends moving away, discord between friends on a subject, worry about my youngest starting Kindergarten.  I feel it all … all the pressure … it’s just sitting there on my shoulders.  I’m carrying all that.

According to that scripture, I’m supposed to take God’s yolk upon me and learn from Him.  There is no way I’m taking HIS stuff when I’m already carrying MY stuff.

Here’s where the ‘letting go’ comes in.

For me to take ‘His Yolk’, I’ve got to put down all my stuff.  If I just put it down on the floor by my feet, it’s just going to sit there and prohibit me from going anywhere and I’m still going to feel the burden of it being there and knowing something has to be done with it.

BUT – If I give it to Jesus, my Savior & Redeemer, someone who cares deeply about me and all my junk, He will actually take it into His arms and do something with all of it.  Then my arms are freed up to take ‘His Yolk’ and learn from Him and rest.

So, today, I’m asking you to give all your stuff, all you ‘junk’ to God.  He knows about it.  He loves you and all your junk.  He wants you to not worry about that and to get in the practice of ‘learning from Him’ about His yolk.  It’s a releasing of control and, in faith and trust, giving your life, and all that’s in it, to a personal God who really does care about you and what is going on with you.

Step out in faith with me today.  Give your junk to Him.  Take His yolk.

How?

In prayer, right now, go through your laundry list of stuff that is bothering you.  All the stuff that is weighing you down, that you’re worrying about, that you’re irritated by, that you’re consumed with, that makes you tense and have headaches and neck-aches.  Willingly give that to God in faith, trusting that He’ll help you, speak to you and guide you according to what you should do with all of it.  Sit there, in prayer, and listen for Him to speak to you and guide you in what you should do.  Don’t be done until you have sat and listened.

What is He saying to you?

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