Oh my goodness … WHERE in the world have you been?!

Are you asking yourself that question about me? or my mom? or these blog posts?  I certainly am!!!!  SO my actual last post was January 12!  Crazy, right … over 2 months ago.  It would be easy for me to sit here and say ‘I have no idea what happened’ … or … ‘I fell off the blogging band-wagon’ … but neither of those would be the truth.  (I’m really big on the truth around here right now .. having a 6 & 3-year-old … I happen to hear a lot of *interesting* stories about who actually hit whom & why … and why one child is screaming at the top of their lungs from the other room when the other is heard saying ‘shhhh …. you’re f-i-n-e!’).

So the truth of the matter is … I hide.  I do.  Sometimes I hide in food … I LOVE carbs, mostly bread.  Not just any bread, but great tasting, rich dipping-type bread.  yummy deliciousness.  But most of time I hide by avoidance.  If I’m having a conflict with someone, just avoid them.  If I can’t avoid them, just ignore the issue.  If I have to do something for our family that sounds overwhelming, just don’t do it and hope it magically gets done on its own (ridiculous, I know!!!).

Recently, it’s been this:  I’m learning a TON right now and sometimes it’s not easy to learn stuff.  I don’t mean learning as in text-book, college, memorizing type learning … but as in The Holy Spirit talking to you and teaching you and stirring stuff up in you type learning.  The long-term results of this kind of learning is absolutely amazing…100% life transforming.  But the road to get there isn’t always easy or fun.  Since last october Father God has been taking me on a path of learning to trust Him deeply…to step out in faith to what He is calling me to and trust in Him that it is His absolute best for me.

January, February and March have been no exception.  Except in March, Jesus kindly showed me that I’ve been hiding a bit as I’ve been learning.   And that He didn’t mean for me to hide in carbs or in avoidance … He only means for me to hide in Him.  His words, His truth, His promises … the bible.

“You are my hiding place and my shield, I wait for your word” Psalm 119:114

So I have to ask … mainly for your personal introspection … where do you hide?  where are you hiding right now?  why are you hiding?  Consider this urge from Psalm 43:5

“Why are you in despair, O my soul?
And why are you disturbed within me?
Hope in God, for I shall again praise Him,
The help of my countenance and my God.”

I urge you, friend, to turn to the God of Hope and share what you are hiding…with Him.

2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Michael Flores
    Mar 31, 2011 @ 21:33:50

    Good word Holly! Even though I chose to fast from any bread, I found myself hiding there after my divorce was finalized. It was easy to rationalize. Ultimately, I found myself feeling convicted, and guilty. It wasn’t that I ate something that I decided to abstain from , it was a lack off intimacy with our Father. That I am grateful to see, and know that He loves us. “Draw near to Me, and I will draw near to you” is always a reminder that it’s not Him that walks away, it’s us. But He is there always, arms wide open!
    Glad to see you back!


  2. 'gini
    Apr 01, 2011 @ 09:31:19

    Great words Holly-I think I hide in staying busy-sounds silly doesn’t it, but if I stay busy, I don’t have to sit and think. The problem with that is how do you ever ‘hear’ God and ‘hear’ those quiet revelations from the Holy Spirit? It is so much easier to avoid anything that is worrying me by staying busy.


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